Being a mom has really made me think about who I am as a person and what want in life. I’ve definitely become more sentimental and in touch with my feelings, which I’m viewing as another plus to motherhood. I’m just a big ol ball of emotion – in a good way – and I’m embracing it in all its strange glory! For example, the other night I put Basil down for bed and decided I needed to look at pictures of him. Why, you might ask? Well, because I missed him of course. Was he approximately 3 feet away from me and in view? Absolutely. Did I cry a little cause he’s the cutest baby ever (I may be slightly biased)? You betcha! Strange, right?
I’m not sure if I’ve got some serious mom-brain going on, or if I’m evolving and preparing for this new chapter, but I love everything about my life. I love everyone around me, I love that I get to spend my days at home with Basil, and I love that I live somewhere so beautiful! I just feel so lucky.
I don’t regret anything I’ve done in life other than that I wish I would have realized sooner that I can do what makes me happy and not feel guilty about it. The day I decided to move with the love of my life was the best step I could have taken for a better and happier future for myself. Oftentimes I do miss my old life, but the past is in the past for a reason, and I’m all about the present and the future.
I’m not religious, but I do think things happen for a reason. I think I needed something new and important in my life and that’s why Michael and I happened to re-meet each other after 6 years – thank you cheap beer and Snapchat! I think that I needed a reason to keep bettering myself and that’s why I was lucky enough to carry our baby and now live this amazing life with him.
So, who am I now? I’m still Izzy; I’m just the mother of a beautiful baby boy. I’m fiancé to the most amazing man I’ve ever met. I’m finally happy! I’ve always wanted to be able to honestly say that I’m happy, and now I can! I’ve never been someone that can just do what I want for me, but I’m learning that I can do that sometimes, and it can even be good for my family (happy wife = happy life, eh?).
So, if this new stage in my life makes me a sentimental ball of emotion, bring it on! I’m ready to take on whatever life throws at me and I couldn’t be more excited to see what the future holds for me and my little family!
Here’s to new beginnings!